Please turn on the lights

One of my good friends is kinda going through a rough time right now and Im struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Its already hard enough always being away for everyone living in florida like I am but I feel like everything I say or do is wrong and Im way out of my element. I really wanna save him and carry him up on m shoulders but every time I try I mess it up even more. The Docs tell him one thing and I am no doctor but apparently what they have to say is either counterproductive or nonproductive. I talk to him everyday which at times is a pain in the ass because he can only talk durning certain hours. I try my best to be cheerful (even though my life is falling apart just as fast ats his) but it damn near always ends up the same way. I wish I could make him try or care but the fact of the matter is he's gotta turn on the lights himself. 

Wade Bowen is hands down my absolute favorite artist of all time and he wrote a song for his wife who was kinda going through the same thing as my friend except hers was postpartum depression. Anyways he wrote this song that I cant get out of my head for the soul reason that I feel the exact same way, so if you get some down time check it out, its called turn on the lights.

I hate Florida. Im not crying about it but I'm just here to tell you that the grass is not greener on the other side. I know that was a bad example because of the fact that everything IS greener in florida because of the rain and constant sun but I think you get what I'm trying to say. I love my friends here and my soccer things I got going on but this isn't me man. I guess what Im trying to say is I am sick of being home sick. Im ready to go back to Texas.

They say bad things happen in three's but as of late Im starting to doubt this system because Im in the eight's at this point. Don't get me wrong I love my life right now and it could always get way worse and Im plenty aware of that but I could use a brake God, ease up on the rain please.

Im normally not this emo, matter of fact, people that bitch about their problems really kinda annoy me but I must say i do feel a bit better after putting it on "paper" than I did when I started this. 

I never really understood the reason to have a blog and Im still not to sure I do other than to vent and rant about your life but right now I could use a pick-me-up so I am going to try this and maybe it will help. We will see.